Checking in

It has been a busy day around here. I've been working on my paracord stuff, chasing Lizzie around, trying to whip up dinner, and applying for jobs.

We've decided to renew the homestudy. Nate was the deciding factor on this one. He was horrified at the thought of quitting. "But...what if a mom is having a baby...and she wants to give it to us?" Well, try to explain THAT to those big, brown eyes! We have always wanted him to feel involved in the adoption process, and this is the first time he has expressed a strong opinion about anything involving it (besides wanting a brother, lol). I'm not thrilled at the thought of searching for another year . . . but at this point, we're so used to it, what could it hurt?

Song of the day, since it's been a while . . .

The video itself makes me motion sick, but the lyrics are perfect. "I'll kneel down, wait for now. . . I will wait, I will wait for you."

Song of the day

If you feel it, you do. If you don't . . . well . . . it's a great song, anyway. :)

Checking in

Not much out of the ordinary going on here, but I feel like making a post anyway.

Montana fooled us all into thinking it was spring and then dumped a foot of snow. It is warming up again, now, and the weather man is saying "spring is going to settle in," which makes me want to run to the store and stock up on essentials before the next huge storm hits. Yeah, not too accurate, our weather man. Nate and Lizzie did have fun playing in the snow today. Lizzie mostly stands around and looks at it in dismay while Nate laughs at her, heehee. Of course, Nate is none too thrilled when his hands get cold. I think they were meant for warmer climes, lol.

We are looking forward to Easter. April is pretty much tainted for me, but I do try to make it a joyful time for the kids. Nate is already asking when we can color our eggs. I went a little nuts buying Easter stuff the other day, and the budget is going to feel it, probably. Cute little stuffed animals and brightly-colored clothes . . . I just couldn't resist (and neither could Andy, who was with me, haha)! I can't wait for warm weather and green grass.

Andy and I continue to try to figure out travelling for the summer. Too many family reunions, not enough time! I'm also wanting to squeeze in a trip to see my sis in Boise. And, assuming I get into my phlebotomy course (knock wood, cross fingers and toes), I have no idea when my lab hours will be. I'll know more when class starts, so most of the solid planning will have to wait a while longer.

I guess I should shuffle off to bed now. I have a million things on my mind tonight and I'm not sure if I'll actually sleep, but it's worth a try.

Sunrise, sunset

Just another day around the Boyle house. Ran around town with Young Dog sticking her head out the window of the Jeep. Went swimming with Lizzie's Kindergarten class (Wow, that's a lot of work!). Fed the kids, played with the kids, kissed the kids, tickled the kids.

Didn't think any deep thoughts about adoption except that I wished a situation would work out for us. This is the last year we're trying, so the clock is ticking down toward homestudy expiration in September. Not real sure how to feel about that, to be honest. Some days I'm glad, some days really sad. For almost six years, we've been striving to add to our family, feeling that someone was missing . . . but we've come to a point where we feel we really and truly have done everything we can to find and bring that someone home. That brings some peace . . . but then there's the days I just long for another child . . . and then the days where I'm so completely happy with (or run ragged by, lol) the two I have I can't imagine adding another kid into the mix.

Whatever happens happens, if it's supposed to work out it will, let go and let God, it is what it is, it's all part of a plan . . . I've heard it all; I've SAID it all. But, really. I'm good. We'll be okay . . . cuz . . . we're us. And we always find a way to be okay, no matter what.

Restless

I've had so much going through my brain...too many thoughts screaming too loudly for attention all at the same time. I can't keep myself from thinking, planning, worrying, wondering. Only way I've found to slow my whirling thoughts is to listen to music (of course). Today, I've been through childhood favorites:

Stuff to dance to (or watch Lizzie dance to):

More childhood favorites:

And music that defines the aching in my soul:

Luckily, my kids are used to any and all of my music tendencies. I hope they're being exposed to a wide variety of music, like I was. Even more, I hope they learn it's okay to take some time to reflect, to sort through your thoughts and emotions, to worry and wonder ... and still come out the other side, whole and well and ready for the journey ahead.

Song of the day, video of the day

Today's song of the day is "You Always Make Me Smile" by Kyle Andrews. Oh yeah, and this is our new adoption video. What do you think? I didn't get much of our "Dear Birthmother" letter in, I'm afraid. Hmmm... Well, let me know what you think so I can work out the kinks, okay!

Have a great day!